Everything You're Not

If I could, I wouldn't take back anything.
I would leave everything as it is
I would be grateful that I learned everything I did about you
Cause now I don't think of you the same
I can't look at you and think the same things
I can't listen to to those songs without thinking of your namE

And you can go on throughout your life
Unaware of anything that's happened
Unaware of the things that have changed
Not thinking about me

But i'll still be thinking of you, and talking to you, and looking at you differently
And I hope one day you'll change
Cause I know you have the heart to do it. 
 

Searching, Waiting, Wishing

Waiting for help
Waiting for answers
Waiting for what I should do

Maybe I'm being selfish
Or maybe it's just you

Should I stay or go?
Should I wait or should I run?
Should I just express what i'm feeling, or keep it all inside?

I'm looking and searching for something better
I'm waiting and hoping i'll come out stronger
I'm not quite sure if I can hold out any longer.

Sometimes

Sometimes I think I hate you

Sometimes I can't even think about hating you

One time I thought I was done singing your song

But this time I know i'm definitely not

From time to time I think I wish you knEw

But really I know I don't

Sometimes I wish I could rewind

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time

Apologize earlier for the time I was ignoring you

But now I know now that everything is meant to be 

There's no use in wishing, cause it's pointless, now I see

So i'm done wishing for everything I wished for, cause I know it'll never come true. 

What I'm feeling.

The song stopped playing,
I'm done with what I was feeling.
I wish you'd say sorry, so I can feel whole again,
I'm almost back to normal, but I want it all back.
My pain
my tears
my laughs
and everything Else.